Leaving Limbo

Grey's Anatomy fans can readily appreciate the cover of this post. For those who are not familiar, it's a clip from when the main character, Meredith Grey, was in a coma. During her unconscious, she was stuck in her version of "limbo" and visited by all the loved ones she's lost over the years.

My limbo is definitely in a waking state, but an in-between space nonetheless. I used to refer to one space of my life as "limbo," but as I write and reflect now, I realize that many parts of my life have felt in limbo. Let me preface this post by saying that it's difficult for my to write about my professional endeavors without reflecting on my personal ones, or vice-a-versa, because it is all happening simultaneously. I've made a conscious decision to no longer compartmentalize (unless absolutely necessary). I want my process, progress, feelings and healing to flow freely and at its own pace. Not according to social media, someone else's actions or my own expectations. I want to take my time with everything. I realize my professional success will come along with me feeling "okay" or "great" even. Big wins and small, I see them happen in the world as a reflection of how I'm feeling about myself. So without further ado, my limbo...

Primarily, my previous relationship was in a state of limbo for approximately 8 months (nearly the same amount of time as the relationship lasted). There's no need to describe what that space is like in great deal. If you've ever had a relationship end with someone you still love, you know exactly how it is.

I've also felt in a space of limbo with work. My manager had been promising me a promotion due to a opening within our department. Yet, that's all I have to go on, her promises. There hadn't been a job posting or any tangible movement on me interviewing for the role for weeks, but she insisted the job was mine. So, I just waited. This waiting game brought me to another insecure space of not knowing what my next move would be. Should I look for a new job in Philadelphia, with my soon-to-be MBA in hand? Is it time to consider relocating? Pre-grad school, I'd never had a work-life balance like this before, so should I just wait and see what happens next over the next few years? Not to mention we're still coming out of a pandemic that's not quite over, what does the next few months even look like? There are so many questions I grappled with in the absence of information.

Finally, when do I pull the trigger on these t-shirts?! Sometimes I feel like I'm overthinking it and I just need to share them online and see what the response is. Other times, I want to apply everything I've learned in my Social Media Marketing class and release them in a very clean, coordinated and intentional way. This is the lesser of my limbos, but still an in-between I am struggling with.

However, this title of this post isn't "Living in Limbo," it's LEAVING LIMBO, because I have arrived to a place of decisiveness and/or received clarity and am able to move forward. I decided to not gush about the ways I'm transitioning out of my different limbos in this post. Instead, I'll use my platforms - LinkedIn, Twitter, Instagram and Facebook - to share the my news and positions as I see fit (and to continue engaging my loyal

readers, lol). What I will say is I am happy to be leaving limbo. I feel blessed and fortunate to have clarity, however painful it is in some cases. I don't think being stuck - because that's what limbo is - is desirable for anyone, but it can be comfortable. And leaving limbo... #uncomfyAF. I've learned with certainty over the years that growth comes from discomfort, so I embrace the next journey, and will have to remind myself of this for the one after that, too.

Feel free to keep up with me. All of socials serve a different purpose but all in alignment with my own. I'd love for you to see what NEXT looks like for me; I can't wait to see myself.

Wish me luck!